I’m not having much fun right now.
I know that worry is all but worthless in a practical sense, but as comparatively easily as I can now jettison it over quotidian nonsense, I’ve got a lot of it tonight that won’t go away.
Heaven forbid I have to pee in the middle of the night right now. Awake is bad. The harder I try not to think about things, the more vigorously I do.
I hope to be able to blog about one component of it late this week. The other is more delicate and has been a lot more difficult for me to give to God, though my efforts continue. In no possible interpretation of either situation am I directly responsible for anything that has happened, and I’m trying hard to remember that.
I had only ever heard the motivational poster version of the serenity prayer. I found a longer version a little while ago. I like it:
God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
- Author unknown